Pia
Straight Asian female (15)
Dear Pia,
You're going through a lot in your teenage years currently. But, remember that your struggles will make you stronger and that you are not alone, even if you feel like it. You constantly worry if you are enough for your parents and if you will be able to make them proud. Every day you see your older sister as this successful mature woman and how much she has done for the family. You see the constant joy on your parents' faces over her achievements and how proud they are to call her their daughter. Sometimes you will feel like a disappointment and think what you are currently achieving will not make them proud of who you are. You will think you need to work harder or be more like her to have them become proud of you. But, always remember that you need to be your own person and you should not strive to be someone else. You have the mindset of striving to be perfect constantly and refusing to let yourself have weak moments or let others see you hurting emotionally and physically. You can acknowledge when you are hurting yourself but do not know how to reach out for the help you need. You hate perceiving yourself as someone who needs others and can’t support themselves by themselves. When you face the truth, you see the tremendous impact this has on your own mental health and realize you cannot be strong all the time. What are my hopes for the future? To be honest, I don’t know. You get told that your future revolves around what college you get into and what your career will be when you are older. I have truly never thought about what my hopes are for the future, other than my education and making a living for myself. But what you do know is that you want to make a difference in this world and work toward a cause that can change something or help someone in need. I want to manifest success. I’m not sure what I truly want to do with my future or what it is going to be like, but it is one of my biggest fears. Growing up, facing challenges on my own, and facing my own future, all terrifies me. I fear that I won’t be successful, so my only goal as I grow up is to become successful and finally be happy and relieved with what I have accomplished.
Yours truly,
Pia